👨🏻‍🍼 A Playlist For Becoming A Dad

Theodore Ellis Cutrone was born on August 2, 2023. About a week before then, I started thinking about all of the things parents tell their kids, and all of the promises they make. I was excited to become a dad, and I still am. But as someone who is fairly aware of his own flaws, I’m trying to figure out how I can best be both a caretaker and a role model for Theo when I can’t always take care of myself; how I can make those promises, and uphold my end of the bargain.

It’s a scary thing to be this needed. What happens if I’m sick, or tired, or busy? Does he just not get clothes that day? Does he not eat? I don’t know how single parents do it - I’m so lucky that my wife is around and an amazing mother, but I know it’s not that way for everyone. And of course he’ll be fine, but that’s (at least partially) reliant on me having my shit together.

Either way, here’s some music about being a parent. I don’t know if it’s supposed to explain how I’m feeling, help me through those feelings, or just fit into the theme of parenting, but it’s the best I’ve got.

And god dammit, I love this kid.

He weighed 8 lbs. 7.5 oz, and was 21 in. long.